{"id":191,"date":"2021-06-05T11:59:00","date_gmt":"2021-06-05T11:59:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/141.148.246.190\/index.php\/single-post\/today-i-might-die\/"},"modified":"2022-04-20T11:29:57","modified_gmt":"2022-04-20T11:29:57","slug":"today-i-might-die","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.alexisveenendaal.com\/index.php\/2021\/06\/05\/today-i-might-die\/","title":{"rendered":"Today, I might die"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Written in the existence of soul,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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I find myself captured by the infinite:<\/span><\/p>\n

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the promise that eternity has no after<\/span><\/p>\n

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or afterlife<\/em>. There is life, but no hereafter.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Life continues. It changes form but that <\/span><\/p>\n

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is not ceasing. It is nowlife<\/em>. <\/span><\/p>\n

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So why would I be afraid? <\/span><\/p>\n

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Recently I heard the words I knew<\/span><\/p>\n

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I’d needed: everything you know<\/span><\/p>\n

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and everyone you know <\/span><\/p>\n

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will <\/span><\/p>\n

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eventually<\/span><\/p>\n

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die.<\/span><\/p>\n

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And this could be my last day,<\/span><\/p>\n

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or I could have a dozen more or <\/span><\/p>\n

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perhaps a hundred or a thousand <\/span><\/p>\n

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and I find that comforting. <\/span><\/p>\n

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So when I wake up, that <\/span><\/p>\n

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is what I tell myself:<\/span><\/p>\n

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Today, I might die.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

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Everything I know<\/span><\/p>\n

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and everyone I know<\/span><\/p>\n

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will eventually die.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I’m going to take those breaths<\/span><\/p>\n

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where I really appreciate life,<\/span><\/p>\n

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I’m going to feel the pain or grief<\/span><\/p>\n

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of moments when they come,<\/span><\/p>\n

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and I am going to go gently<\/span><\/p>\n

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into that good night, because I know<\/span><\/p>\n

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that I have loved fiercely, and lived <\/span><\/p>\n

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and had hopes and dreams,<\/span><\/p>\n

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and they don’t need to be completed <\/span><\/p>\n

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in order to be good.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/article>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/article>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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Everything I know
\nand everyone I know
\nwill eventually die.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":969,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"episode_type":"","audio_file":"","cover_image":"","cover_image_id":"","duration":"","filesize":"","date_recorded":"","explicit":"","block":"","filesize_raw":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[109,71],"series":[],"class_list":["post-191","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poetry","tag-death","tag-poetry"],"episode_featured_image":"https:\/\/blog.alexisveenendaal.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/pexels-luis-quintero-1713953.jpg","episode_player_image":"https:\/\/blog.alexisveenendaal.com\/wp-content\/plugins\/seriously-simple-podcasting\/assets\/images\/no-album-art.png","download_link":"","player_link":"","audio_player":false,"episode_data":{"playerMode":"dark","subscribeUrls":{"amazon":{"key":"amazon","url":"https:\/\/music.amazon.ca\/podcasts\/09c34bbc-b359-49af-a286-31830ed5634c\/short-stories","label":"Amazon","class":"amazon","icon":"amazon.png"},"apple_podcasts":{"key":"apple_podcasts","url":"https:\/\/podcasts.apple.com\/us\/podcast\/short-stories\/id1621456328","label":"Apple Podcasts","class":"apple_podcasts","icon":"apple-podcasts.png"},"google_play":{"key":"google_play","url":"https:\/\/podcasts.google.com\/feed\/aHR0cHM6Ly9hbGV4aXN2ZWVuZW5kYWFsLmNvbS9mZWVkL3BvZGNhc3Qvc2hvcnQtc3Rvcmllcw","label":"Google Play","class":"google_play","icon":"google-play.png"},"google_podcasts":{"key":"google_podcasts","url":"https:\/\/podcasts.google.com\/feed\/aHR0cHM6Ly9hbGV4aXN2ZWVuZW5kYWFsLmNvbS9mZWVkL3BvZGNhc3Qvc2hvcnQtc3Rvcmllcw","label":"Google Podcasts","class":"google_podcasts","icon":"google-podcasts.png"},"spotify":{"key":"spotify","url":"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/show\/0lcQCRs52MfYlKs35lVX4K","label":"Spotify","class":"spotify","icon":"spotify.png"},"itunes":{"key":"itunes","url":"https:\/\/podcasts.apple.com\/us\/podcast\/short-stories\/id1621456328","label":"iTunes","class":"itunes","icon":"itunes.png"}},"rssFeedUrl":"https:\/\/blog.alexisveenendaal.com\/feed\/podcast\/default-podcast","embedCode":"

Today, I might die<\/a><\/blockquote>