{"id":136,"date":"2018-07-04T11:59:00","date_gmt":"2018-07-04T11:59:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/141.148.246.190\/index.php\/single-post\/shifting-scenes\/"},"modified":"2022-04-19T10:14:07","modified_gmt":"2022-04-19T10:14:07","slug":"shifting-scenes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.alexisveenendaal.com\/index.php\/2018\/07\/04\/shifting-scenes\/","title":{"rendered":"Shifting Scenes"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Conversations are forgettable<\/span><\/p>\n

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as soon as they happen.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Scenes shift like pieces of<\/span><\/p>\n

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a movie. Black flashes<\/span><\/p>\n

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break apart the moments.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Nothing flows together.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Each thing is a separate story.<\/span><\/p>\n

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If there was an award<\/span><\/p>\n

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for being normal, I would win it.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I know exactly how to be human<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n

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My forgotten sense of space. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Fully in the body and out<\/span><\/p>\n

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of the over-thinking mind.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Actions precise, focused,<\/span><\/p>\n

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and the background is translucent. <\/span><\/p>\n

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How do people function? There’s<\/span><\/p>\n

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no way I’m normal.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I have no idea how to be human<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Take back the award.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I don’t care what I look like.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Wait, do I? What do I look like<\/span><\/p>\n

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to the rest of them? Do they see me?<\/span><\/p>\n

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Faces pass. I notice every detail<\/span><\/p>\n

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around me. My shirt feels like <\/span><\/p>\n

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tiny pieces of chain-mail, but<\/span><\/p>\n

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it’s not indestructible. It’s thread.<\/span><\/p>\n

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In this world I can’t remember<\/span><\/p>\n

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what words have left my mouth.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Did I make sound? What did I say?<\/span><\/p>\n

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Oh, I remember. That was stupid.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I am not who I think. Taste<\/span><\/p>\n

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doesn’t hit my tongue. It hits<\/span><\/p>\n

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above my tongue. I am numb.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I am tired and I could sleep anywhere<\/span><\/p>\n

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because the temperature fits my skin.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Shifting Scenes<\/a><\/blockquote>